All About me…

teng… dah jem 12 pas nih…. mustinya sih gue udah tidur karna gue musti bangun pagi2 besok… tapi masih belom bisa tidur… so…. posting blog kayaknya enak. hari ini gue abis ntn fast n furious tokyo drift… mantep booo filmnya… kayaknya asik banget tuh ngeliat drifting kayak gitu… pengen d ihh coba…

trus skr ini seperti biasa.. gue masih dalam tahap bingung… sebenernya yang namanya pelarian itu kyk gimana sih??? saran dunk…. misalnya ya… si a baru putus, si b juga baru putus. trus tiba2 karna suatu hal si a dan si b jadi deket…. trus itu namanya pelarian ato bukan? sapa ya yg bisa ngejelasin…. sebenernya gue ngerti sih… tapi komentar sapa aja gue tampung. oh ya trus kalo pelampiasan kayak gimana? coba2 gue pengen denger pendapat para pembaca…

huaaammm….. kayaknya gue udah mulai ngantuk nih.. bobo dulu ah….

pengen posting sebelom tidur nih… hari ini gue abiz ketemu temen gue… dia baru balik dari sg n bawa titipan gue… mustinya sih boneka monyet… tapi agak2 nyaru dikit. gpp sih soalnya tuh boneka juga lucu n ndut n pink. hehehe… senangnya koleksi gue jadi bertambah. tapi sebelnya dia keilangan kamera nya. parah tuh airport indo, bisaan bagasi orang dibuka2 n barangnya di colong. jadi ilang d kameranya. sedihnya poto gue juga ada disitu… ikutan ilank jg d. announcement buat yang sering pergi pake pesawat… inget jangan taro barang yang berharga di bagasi… bahaya.
trus lagi gue sekarang lagi kangen banget…. ma seseorang disana yang pastinya udah bobo… tau d dia udah nyampe mana. ya udah ah gue juga udah ngantuk banget…. pengen tidur…. sapa tau bisa mimpi yang indah gitu. heheheh… trus besok pagi telponan ma seseorang… sapa tau bisa mendengar kata sayang itu. hehehe… rite then… bye……

Pagi ini ada sesuatu yang bikin gue seneng, pagi2 bangun tlp ma seseorang disana yang bikin pagi gue menyenangkan. soalnya makin hari dia tuh makin manis…. udah kayak gula aja manis. gue dirumah sampe siang hari ini nungguin orang yang lagi beresin mobil. trus baru d ke kampus.
sore gue janjian ama dia… main pool. sebel… main pool ga pernah menang. bukan makin pinter malah makin payah. seneng sih bisa ketemu ama dia… tapi entah kenapa hari ini gue ngerasa basi… padahal tadi siang yang masih kangen n gimana gitu eh pas dah sore kayaknya udah mulai basi. lagi moody banget nih… tapi sekarang gue lagi kangen banget ma dia, pengen bermanja2. ya udah d mo tidur dulu… soalnya bahaya kalo lewat jem 12. ciao….

Hai hai… bosennya hari ini… kadang ada yang nemenin msn tapi hari ini yang gue harepin nemenin gue lagi ga ada. ya apa bole buat d.

Ternyata ada juga yah.. yang ngebaca blog gue… gue pikir ga ada ngebaca. Buat temen2 gue tercinta yang ngebaca kapan donk kita jalan2? dah lama nih menghilank dari peredaran…

hm… trus topik bahasan gue hari ini adalah… kebiasaan. menurut loe sesuatu yang udah jadi kebiasaan itu bisa gampang diilangin ga sih?? yang lagi mo gue omongin tuh tentang seseorang. kayak kalo tiba2 loe mengenal seseorang dan tiba2 keseharian eloe tuh selalu ada dia, n tiba2 dia menghilang apa yah yang bakal dirasain? ato… kalo tentang kebiasaan yang udah sering loe lakuin tiap hari tapi tiba eloe ga bisa ngelakuin kebiasaan eloe lg. seandainya loe yang dalam situasi tersebut what will u do?

kalo buat gue… perasaan yang kaya gini udah kesekian kalinya gue rasain. but then this time… gue agak2 takut. coz… i dunno why, this time i just can’t really control myself, so that i wont fall so deep. kali ini gue ga bisa segampang biasanya untuk ngelupain n ga pake feeling. entah kenapa ya… too much feeling involve… udah jelas2 padahal gue tau banget kalo semua yang gue rasain, alamin, n gue lakuin tuh cuma sementara… sesaat aja.

gue bingung banget…. kenapa ya cinta tuh dateng tiba2 pada saat yang ga pernah loe harapin. dia dateng gitu aja… bikin loe ngerasa bener2 indah banget nih dunia… tapi ntar ga lama kemudian dia menghilank gitu aja. sekarang ini gue cuma bisa ngejalanin yg ada n nunggu kapan rasa itu n kebiasaan itu akan hilank dari gue… n apa yang akan terjadi setelahnya… coz… kayaknya gue mulai addicted…

Addicted ~Enrique Iglesias

Have I told you how good it feels to be me,
when I’m in you?
I can only stay clean
when you are around.
Don’t let me fall.
If I close my eyes forever,
would it ease the pain?
Could I breathe again?

Chorus:
Maybe I’m addicted,
I’m out of control,
but you’re the drug
that keeps me from dying.
Maybe I’m a liar,
but all I really know is
you’re the only reason I’m trying.

I am wasted away,
I made a million mistakes.
Am I too late?
There is a storm in my head;
it rains on my bed
when you are not here.
I’m not afraid of dying,
but I am afraid of losing you.

Chorus:
Maybe I’m addicted,
I’m out of control,
but you’re the drug
that keeps me from dying.
Maybe I’m a liar,
but all I really know is
you’re the only reason I’m trying.

When you’re lying next to me
love is going through to me.
Oh it’s beautiful.
Everything is clear to me
’till I hit reality
and I lose it all…
I lose it all…
I lose it all.
I lose it all…
Nah nah nah
nah nah nah….
Nah nah nah nah nah nah…..
nah nah nah nah nah nah….

You’re the only reason,
Yeah, you’re the only reason I’m trying,
Oh, I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying,
Don’t want to lose it all,
Don’t want to lose it all,
I’m trying, I’m trying..
I’m trying …
Yeah, you know I’m addicted,
You know I’m addicted,
Yeah, you know I’m addicted….

Sebel… dari kemaren ga bisa check friendster
abiznya inet dirumah lagi boyo banget… ix ix ix.. hm… barusan aja
gue lagi liat blog temen gue.. yang bilang love moves in mysterious
ways… n kayaknya  tuh  kalimat bikin gue ngerasa sesuatu. Indeed love
is mysterious. kayak perasaan hati gue yang sekarang ini. bener2
membingungkan. di satu sisi gue menyukai …. tapi disisi lain kayaknya
itu ga mungkin. siapa gue gitu loh… gue ga tau kemana perasaan gue
akan pergi… tapi gue takut kalo gue kehilangan. bingung… is this
for real? the feeling that i have and the feeling that i feel? hm…
nih ada lagu yg lagi kena banget buat gue…

Tell Me It’s Real
-Kci & Jojo-

Are you for real

like how i feel
can we share a love
to last forever
and if so
let me know

Song:

(Chorus)
Tell me its real
the feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don’t let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Baby you told me that you loved me and you’d never leave my side
till the bitter end, through the thick and thin
you promised me baby that you wasn’t goin anywhere
baby keep it real, let me know just how you feel

(Chorus)

I can’t explain the way you made me feel, everytime that you told me that you loved me
and you know you did, too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along, and showed me happiness
baby you are the best, i think you’re different from the rest
and i really love ya

(Chorus)

Tell me its real
this feeling that i feel
tell me its real
for you’re love
i would do anything

Tell me its real
the feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don’t let love come just, to pass us by

(you gotta)

Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(do you really love me)
the feelin that we feel
(do you really care)
tell me that its real
(you promised that you’d never leave my side)
don’t let love come just, to pass us by
(you promised that you’d always be there)
Try, is all we have to do
(is all we have to do)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(i’ll be there for you)
the feelin that we feel
(you be there for me, sweetheart)
tell me that its real
(i thought that we were meant to be, for eternity, thought you loved me baby)
don’t let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
(mama told me told me so, boy you just don’t know, anything about love)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
(and you and i were meant to be, and you would know, i was sure by the end of this song)

this morning i woke up at 6 a.m. i look at my phone n there’s 1 missed call plus 2 message. tat msg was from him n i dunno wats wrong wif him again. coz as i know, with him everything is over and it is a decision of no return. i am single… i am free…. but still i dunno y i can’t do things my way. y i can’t do whatever i want. huh….now i’m pissed off, coz i am not an object….

Hm…. hari ini ada sesuatu… yang bikin gue
bingung banget. seseorang tiba2 dateng n merasa ga puas akan satu hal.
weleh… idup uda susah dibikin makin susah aja. ya intinya dia bener2
bikin gue jadi bingung…. lah gimana ga mau bingung gue lagi nanggur
tiba2 dia dateng n ga lama ngomong yg nggak2. gue tau banget kalo dia
tu lagi lost… in no where. but… gue juga ga bisa bantu apa2… as
gue ma dia tu uda sampe di point of no return. keputusan gue uda bulet
se bulet2 nya…
cinta emang susah di mengerti ya… gue cuma bisa berharap kalo dia tu
bisa ngejalanin semuanya dengan baik2. trus… ada atu lagi… mungkin
ga si mencintai tanpa memiliki??? bisakah cinta setulus itu???